Readers: What the heck is, “Chucked?”
Minus: Please read the entry right before this one for an explanation.

I saw my life totally different–as we all have. I was going to be well on my way to establishing a very small design firm as well as various other investments that would send my future children to a decent private school as well as allow me to lay on caribbean beaches where I would languidly conduct world-altering meetings through my powerbook screen. I’d be the female Karim Rashid, but on a small scale. Me with two future kids and a future loving husband. My work uniform would alternate between high heels and DC high tops<< an indication of my own personal freedom. I would be hard working and happy and independent and fulfilled. Oh, i didn’t expect to have all those things right NOW, but- I would be able to see it coming. Also I would have a unicorn with a rainbow mane.

So what have I gotten right? I work for myself (contracting), I have some DC high tops and last week SKETCHED a unicorn with a rainbow mane for a project.

I came to new york to work a great job (scratch great and rewrite high-profile) in the wrong field (fashion). Of course I was promptly laid off along with 10 other people and that began my wild spiral of doubt. A few years out of that concrete box, sometimes I feel like i’m on top of the world and then sometimes I wonder if I’ve gotten it all wrong. Not only am I no longer 100% percent sure of what I’m doing, I’m not even sure If I want to do it anymore. I still have my passion and drive, but for the first time I’ve had to sit down and figure out exactly where the hell i’m driving to because road in front of me is not clear. It used to be a highway, now it is a dusty unbeaten path, and I don’t know if I’m going in the right direction.

Even still there has never been a goal that I’ve strived for that I haven’t attained, it just may not be look or feel exactly as I’d planned it…and that is true of everyone. Even the people I know who’s lives suck, were in someway planning towards that since college. This is what I try to tell myself when I stress at nights (Hopefully this will help whoever is reading this as well). “Khia, Just relax, focus and work your ass off and eventually You’ll cut a path out of the woods”. I sincerely believe that with all my heart…today (Smile).

Khia Jackson, Designer, New York

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